love blues & music

i don't understand why i can't snag a boy.
"he'll come soon" "it's good to be single, girl!" "just be a lesbian LAWL" "just wait, i bet he's right around the corner"

...im so tired of those.

GAH! is it really that hard to meet a guy, be friends first, go on a few dates, and a temporary romance? my campus seriously lacks guys. i've had people pursue (2) but know you they are just straight up c r e e p y. <> so there are people of ALL ages basically, and really wierd people...i guess that's what i get for not really deciding what university to go to until 2 years LOL.
but seriously. i'm so tired of being single. i thought i would try the "don't look for him, let him come to you" method, and it hasn't worked at all :/ i wasn't allowed to date in high school..(until i was 18) so i rejected some guys then...FML. haha, what if i sneaked? would i be a guy magnet now? hahah, jaykay...
i complain that i want a guy, and then my friends try to set me up and i don't want it...i would want it to come naturally, like we met on our own, it wasn't forced. i don't like those at all.i would like a guy to approach me on his free will & because he likes me, not because his friend promised me i was hot or pretty. ahha.

some people tell me to look at the clubs...EW. most guys go to clubs to get a little 'somethin somethin' and i keep the goods on hold until a serious relationship aka marriage haha.
next semester, i'll be at a new campus, so maybe my luck will be there. and don't get me wrong, i just don't take whatever is thrown at me, i have my standards as well! but im not really picky either...ugh, why are the simple things so complicated? grrr.


~some of you know that i am a korean culture/music junkie. i recently got the new
2PM ALBUM! it is sooo good. some favorites of mine are "gimme the light", "all night long", and "crazy for you". i'm glad they are all singing more, and it's still beastly <3 i really miss jay though, i hope he comes back soon. check out that JYP interview from golden fishery...the music and beats are soooo sick, and "heartbeat" and the MV is so awesome, it's a bit emo, but i like it. it shows a different side of them...anyways that's all i had to vent about!

what do you guys/gals think? blahhhhh love